Which Road Am I On?
At present my life seems very unfulfilling. I seem to be at crossroads and everything seems to be closing in further each day. I binge on other people’s lives via their You Tube channels and aren’t really living my life. I’m sure there are people out there that live the dream, but their dream probably isn’t my dream. I want to feel like I am getting up each day and living life, not just getting up each day and working at life. I don’t want my reality to be dreaming somebody else’s reality.
I want a routine that moulds me into an individual, caresses me into believing in myself and nurtures me into growing and becoming a person that is inspire by my own achievements, committed to my own goals and works towards inspiring others to become their own individuals.
Stepping into the unknown frightens me. Leaving the safety net of a job that brings in regular money each week; the scariness of having to push and develop myself; the weirdness of becoming me when “me” might not be what everyone else thinks “me” should be; the negative opinions of people who genuinely love me, but still can’t see me becoming the person I want to be instead of what society thinks I should be. The list goes on and on. And what if the new me isn’t as good as I thought it was going to be? What if it’s uncomfortable and I find out it’s not what I want after all?
As Sir Edmund Hilary once said
“it’s not the mountain we conquer but ourselves”
Growing as a human requires a certain depth of understanding the person you are. It takes a fair amount of bravery to step out of our comfort zone and into the wilds of a lifestyle that entices you out of your zone and I admire the people that have done it. Years can pass and before you know it life is the same every day, instead of being an adventure. Just like putting true feelings into words and letting others read them, living your life on your terms require commitment, discipline, bravery and a deep understanding of where you are heading to.
Writing these words brings my own journey into focus and the main thought I am thinking is “it won’t happen without me doing something new” Just what that is yet I am still learning. I need to work though many obstacles that hinder my development, find the solution to the things I love to do and build my passions to where I bound out of bed each morning and can’t wait to start a meaningful day.
Here’s to the future…… 😊